[He’s never even said his given name, much less his surname, and Wolfwood has been around Ain long enough to know that means something. It sends a thrill through his system, prompting such a goofy god damn smile that he has to look away before Ain sees.
Jesus fucking Christ he is down SO bad. He’s pretty sure that if Ain ever deigns to utter his first name, he…can’t promise the level of acting up he may or may not do.]
No sleeveless shirts, no suits, got it.
[He manages, a bit breathless as he waits for Ain to climb on the bike, back or front. Front of course will be a bit dicey since he’s been struggling with his hormones this whole time, but the silence in the cold air was enough to calm him down. Mostly. It’s fine—
They drive off. Wolfwood is consumed by thoughts of Ain. He wishes he had his own landline so he could call him, but Chapel would skin him alive. He could send him letters? But does his family check his mail? He wouldn’t want to do that to him.
Ugh. Ugh. He grips the handlebars so tight his knuckles blanch white as the bus stop looms into view. He parks on the curb, the engine still purring, and waits for Ain to get off.
The demon on his shoulder screams for him to kiss his cheek as he gets off, but he just barely beats it back down. The hug was bad enough, that is a sure fire way to get yourself punched in the face. So he watches Ain as he goes, calling after him:]
Get home safe, yeah?
[And…he drives off. He leaves because the bus is already here, and he can watch Ain board it safely in his mirrors. He has to go now, lest he feel tempted to climb aboard behind him.
Wolfwood speeds home. He drives well over the speed limit and somehow manages to not get caught, nearly throwing his bike over in the front lot of the mansion in his haste to get inside. He makes it upstairs without getting accosted by the other family, somehow, and locks himself up in his room.
He doesn’t even make it to his bed. He gets to the foot of it before collapsing on his knees there, fumbling with his belt so he can get his hand into his pants, his forehead mashed into the edge of the mattress. He breathes heavy, fisting himself so hard his belt jingles, his mind’s eye possessed with visions of Ain bouncing on his cock, or crying out underneath him on his back as he steals his first time away.
He paints the floorboards, then begs for forgiveness.]
[Meanwhile, Ain... definitely cries just a little bit at the back of the bus, where no one can see him and no one's paying attention. He can't figure out what's wrong with him. Why does he want Wolfwood to touch him so badly? Why did he get upset when Wolfwood wouldn't keep touching his hair like that, why couldn't Ain just put his head on the guy's shoulder, what was up with the hug? Why does Wolfwood have to go make him feel things? Shameful, awful things that he shouldn't even have to feel?
He could've been so normal, miserable for the rest of his life, doing what was pious and right of him to ensure he gets into Heaven, and yet here he is. Here he is, wondering if there might be something different out there, if maybe a lot of things in his life have been a lie, if it's okay to have these awful thoughts about a friend.
Ain gets home. He goes right upstairs immediately and goes to shower before anyone can notice him. He sits on the edge of the bathtub and lets the water pour from the showerhead around him, embarrassed and scared and praying that there isn't something horribly wrong with him. He's just sick. He's ill. That's all it is. He didn't do anything wrong, like yes his hands were wandering and yes he's had some questionable dreams lately, but it's not like they actually did anything. They're friends...
"I'm not doing anything" Ain says, and then that night when he goes to bed, he dreams of doing things. He dreams of Wolfwood pressed up against his back, against his ass, fully clothed but kissing his neck while Ain's being shoved down against — something, who knows, a firm surface for sure, a bed or a wall or a desk or the floor. He dreams about where he'd put his hands if Wolfwood ever allowed him free reign of everything the man has, from his biceps to his chest to his abs and lower, to his hips, maybe his thighs, and Ain wakes up feeling feverish and hot. It takes his brain several more minutes of catching up before he realises he's hard and aching.
He was told if he ever did anything about that, that his hands would fall off and he'd die instantly of a heart attack because God is so pissed at him. But God didn't answer his prayers earlier in the night, when he asked if he could be forgiven for being a little curious, and it's 2am and Ain thinks to himself that he's not going to be able to sleep if he doesn't get it out of his system. So he rolls onto his back, staring at the canopy of his bed overhead, and sits up to close it all the way. Even if God is awake and listening right now, good luck seeing him now!!
...Ain hasn't ever done this before, though. He lays back on his back and continues to stare at the top of the canopy. Closes his eyes, thinks to himself that maybe he'll get back to sleep, and then he doesn't. The only thing he sees, the only thing he swears he can smell, is Wolfwood's cologne and nicotine. Ain lets his brain wander back to a mishmash of his earlier dreams — them necking in the car, the way Wolfwood pressed against him, letting his hands wander — and that spurns him on enough to at least dip his hands underneath his pyjama bottoms. Except even that feels too sinful, too shameful, (his hands mysteriously do not fall off), and so he pulls his hands back after the initial touch and palms himself through his pyjama bottoms instead, imagining that it's Wolfwood's hand there instead.
He lasts a solid two minutes doing this. It's probably not even shocking. Ain has no measure of time for these things, so he rolls over, feeling sticky and gross, and puts his pillow over his head and screams into the mattress.]
Wolfwood has actual work he has to get back to as he toils away the hours between now and his date (because that’s ALL he can think of it as) with Ain. He has to patrol the city. He beats up thugs for causing trouble where they shouldn’t. He drives his bike around town to blow off steam, nearly running a light when he catches sight of the seafood place they’d be eating at next week. He cycles back towards home so he can finish off the day by roughing up a pair of goons who had fallen behind on their protection fees. He snatches every valuable they own as penance to bring back to Chapel, going through the objects as he sits in his truck.
Then, he happens to rifle through a wallet, eyes widening when he sees the copious amounts of bookstore coupons and gardening magazine clippings. On top of it being a very familiar green…the ID is missing and so is the money, but he has a sneaking suspicion he should hang onto it, so he does. It definitely sits heavy in his pocket as he goes to scrub the blood off his hands and arms.
After that, he has a drink at the lounge. He listens to his mates talk about their day. He leaves when a few of them start bragging about the women they’ve shagged. No thanks he doesn’t want to hear it, bye. Instead, he goes to his room and showers, placing the wallet carefully into his desk beforehand.
He swears he can smell star anise.
That evening is spent browsing a porn mag from under his bed. He’s feeling miserable and horny and it’s only been a day, and if he’s pulling out the porn you know he’s desperate. The thing is…gay porn is illegal to sell. But the magazine he’s reading isn’t technically porn by definition, but most in these circles accept it as such. And so will he.
It’s “just a fitness magazine” his ass, he thinks as he slowly jerks off to the images of the scantily clad men in the magazine. Thing is though, they’re all too…big. Too fit, too large, they’re not…
He closes his eyes, letting his imagination take over. Ain easily slots over the visages of some of the smaller guys, with his thin waist and thick thighs. He fists himself to the mental image of Ain being fucked open underneath him. He hears Ain squeal his name in his ears in his mind’s eye, and he shoots all the way up to his own chin.
This…is how he’ll spend his nights when they’re apart, when he isn’t working his Undertaker job or his mafia job.
There are days when he's fine. When he's like "yeah I like guys I think, so what", and then he spends the entire day doing his tasks (doctoring, gardening, whatever it is) and reading his Straight Romance Books™ and wondering yet again why he feels so empty reading these. There are days when he's not fine, when he spends hours praying and hoping God will hear him, he's Not Gay Actually because that's a sin and he can't do that, and whenever he has a thought about Wolfwood he winds up in tears. There are nights where his dreams are ostensibly normal, and nights when they're downright debauched, at least as debauched as Ain's brain can get because he doesn't know all the things that go into having any amount of gay sex. When he wakes up horny and wanting half the nights they're apart, Ain doesn't do much other than palm himself through his pants until he gets off, or sometimes humps a pillow like an animal.
Sunday, they have service. Ain feels too filthy to be seen in the house of the Lord right now, so he offers to do confessional service, especially because it seems like his youngest brother doesn't want to do it and would rather spend time cleaning out the storage this week. That's fine, they all switch roles from time to time, save for the fact that the community garden is Ain's and Ain's entirely, something no one wants to step on because he does a damn good job at keeping people fed. Screwing up the meticulous watering and fertilizing schedules of the plants is going to wreck them. Ain has this.
So. Confessional... turns out to be a bad idea. A man comes in and sits on the other side and confesses to Ain that he thinks he's in love with a man, and Ain wants to bang his head into the wall until he passes out. He asks a simple question: Do you think you may me misconstruing this love for the love of a friend or a brother? And the guy answers: I don't think I would want a friend or brother to touch me like he does, Priest.
That really cements everything in place for Ain, that little interaction. In the end, he tells the man what Ishmael would tell any other man: Do not give into temptation. Pray it away. Let the Lord's Light be your succour on those dark nights. The Lord says you will not end up in Hell if you continue to follow His teachings.
It feels colourless and empty, like everything in Ain's life when Wolfwood isn't around. Those colourful ink stains that Wolfwood left on him still can't be scrubbed from his skin no matter how hard he tries. He's furious about it. He wants to cry again, and he does, after the guy leaves to go try to cure himself of the gay. Ain isn't sure whether he breaks down because he's actually sad and worried about himself, or if it's because he's lonely and wants Wolfwood to hug him again.
By the time Tuesday rolls around, Ain is resolute in a few things. The first thing is that he probably, definitely, is not a heterosexual man. The second is that maybe there's a "fix" for him somewhere, if he just gets it out of his system. The third is that he's going to tell Wolfwood before they go that he likes guys, and he expects Wolfwood to call him every slur in the book and storm off, and that'll be that. That'll fix him. Can't give into temptation if the guy cuts their friendship off there, calls him names, and probably beats him within an inch of his life.
He dresses like they're going to dinner still even though he's sure Wolfwood's about to connect the dots of Ain's wandering hands to his degeneracy and probably shoot him in the face about it, that way Wolfwood doesn't think he's just given up entirely beforehand. And hey, maybe Ain will die and leave a pretty corpse. One has to wonder why Ain wants somebody to hurt him so badly over this, but that's a traumatic talk for another day.
So. He shows up. He meets Wolfwood where they agreed to meet, at the park where they always meet up, and he waves and smiles in a way that's completely empty. If he's not going to die tonight, he's at least going to lose a friend, so... y'know. Doing well.]
[Oh Ain. You sweet summer child. You innocent untainted pure of heart boy. Little do you know that the guy you’re pining over has been gay this entire time. It’s been coming from inside the house!! If Wolfwood were going to call you every slur in the book, then he’d have to do the very same in the mirror. He’s been jerking off to you all week what do you mean-
Unaware of Ain’s struggles, Wolfwood gets dressed Tuesday evening and drives his Toyota to the park this time to avoid any repeat incidents on his bike. Plus, he knows a motorbike will draw unwanted attention in the more wealthy midtown, so he’d rather not risk if if he could help it. He’s leaning against the truck door when he sees Ain arrive, waving to him as he makes his way over.
He wordlessly hands him the wallet before anything else, smirking.]
No need to thank me. I found the goons who took your wallet.
[Nothing serves to distract like having his wallet back, that's for sure. Ain takes it and flips through it. It's definitely his; this is his shade of green, that's a familiar silver cross logo on the front, and those sure are his (almost expired) (he's got like two days left on these bad boys) coupons in here. Yep, tracks.]
Oh, I dunno. The green, the cross, the gardening magazine clippings…but sure, let’s call it a lucky guess.
[Wolfwood smirks, leaning forward at the waist. Ain may have noticed that he’s wearing the blazer they met in originally, with the same crosses on the sleeves and everything. It seems to be one of his fancier outfits compared to the leather.
Even if…it means his chest is exposed…oh boy. At least that cross is laying between his pecs? That has to count for something.]
S’long as I’m with you it won’t get swiped again, don’t worry. Anyway, ready to head out? I’m starving, dunno about you.
[He seems…in an unusually good mood, being with Ain again.]
[Ain wants to playfully cuff his arm or something, but... but no. No, he has to say something. Get it off his chest while he's staring at Wolfwood's. He's not going to say "hey I've been getting off to you FYI" because that's weird, is that weird? Is it weird to do that? He doesn't know, anyway, he's not doing it. He is gonna frown and put his wallet in his cardigan pocket. The greens match each other nearly exactly.
He takes a breath.]
Wait. I... I want to tell you something. You probably won't like it, but I'll forgive you if you don't. Um, but I... I think...
[He fidgets, pulling at his sleeves in that familiar way he does. His eyes snap to the ground, and his voice lowers so that only Wolfwood can hear.]
I think I might... like... men. Other men. I mean— I'm keen on them.
[Well, he's keen on Wolfwood, but he can't just say that. If this admission doesn't get him murdered on sight, that one would. Or so Ain thinks, anyway.]
I know you don't want to hear that from someone you're friends with, so I wanted to tell you before you wasted any more time with me. I'm sorry. I only just figured it out, or I would've said something sooner.
[Wolfwood’s smile falters. His expression shifts into something that’s…difficult to discern as he stands there almost dumbfounded, and, from Ain’s perspective?
It probably looks bad. Really bad.
Even worse when Wolfwood suddenly takes his arm with a weird sense of urgency, even though Ain was whispering and only they two could have possibly heard.]
…get in the car. We can talk about it more in there.
[To Ain, this probably sounds like he’s about to get murdered in his crush’s car. But in reality, this is NOT a conversation they should be having in the open, nor is it one Wolfwood wants to have beyond the tinted windows of his truck (tinted because he’s mafia).
In reality, his heart feels like it might explode. He’s..dizzy with relief. Giddy. Ecstatic. Nervous.
[Ain supposes if he dies, he dies! And no one will find his body because Wolfwood will give him cement shoes and then the fish will eat his corpse and in 100 years some true crime person on the future YouTubes will be like "THE UNSOLVED CASE OF ISHMAEL'S MISSING SON" or something, and it'll be sad and tragic and Ain will be in Hell being tortured while some guy makes sponsorship money off of his dried bones.
He looks uncomfortable at the suggestion, but he gets in the truck anyway, staying Very Close to the door just in case Wolfwood thinks to pull out a gun and splatter his brains all over the glass. It's shut, of course, but Ain's got his hand near the handle like he might attempt an escape if things go south.]
Please don't murder me. Or if you do, let me go back home and say bye to my family first?
[They’re in the car. The doors are shut, but not locked. Wolfwood opens his mouth to speak, and-]
…what? Murder you?
[Wolfwood exhales on a laugh. It’s fond, and gentle. He? Wants to hold him? He wants to drag him into his lap and tell him it’s okay to be gay, but he doesn’t want to scare him either. Never mind the fact Wolfwood has his own hang uses about it to the point where he’s not sure he’d even believe his own advice…
Okay. Let’s start small.]
Ain. It’s okay.
[He sits back in his seat, sighing. It’s nice and private in the car, at least.]
I’m not gonna lie, I’ve thought you were this whole time. I just figured you were super closeted.
Wait. You knew? The whole time? And you didn't tell me? [Ain, you can't just call people fairies, that starts fights.] I— was it obvious?
[Ain you FELT HIM UP???]
I am super closeted! [AIN] I'm telling you because— [because he's been having sinful, terrible thoughts] —because you're my friend, and who wants to be friends with someone like that?! I haven't told anybody else. I just barely figured it out! I was raised really— really religiously, you know! We don't just do that Northside!
[The anxiety is approaching. The anxiety is going to kill him. The anxiety wants him to die—]
[Oh my god Ain please don’t die before he can kiss you, hold up-]
Wait, wait- Angel, breathe.
[Wolfwood reaches out and puts a tentative hand on Ain’s shoulder, not wanting him to hyperventilate with how fast he’s trying to explain himself. Meanwhile, he’s over here feeling a little guilty over how relieved he is, like holy shit. He’s gay. He’s actually realized he’s gay. Which means…
Maybe…he has a shot. Just maybe…
He swallows thickly, realizes he just dropped a pet name on him, and quickly retrieves his hand, face flushing.]
It ain’t like I knew for sure or nothin’. But you kinda…some things…I dunno. Had me wondering.
[It was, unfortunately for Ain, more than just being felt up. Way more. And now?
He isn’t sure how much more he can take. It’s like having a whole cake put in front of him and being told he can’t eat any.
Wolfwood looks over his shoulder, into his back seat. It’s a little messy. One of his spare jackets is thrown over the seat, there are some boxes and crap on the floor. He tries to keep his cigarette butts in the holder, but they do inevitably fall out. Back there though…the windows are tinted near black, as dark as he can legally get away with. It’s not so dark in the front seat.
…]
Hey. Let’s uh…let’s get in the back for a minute.
[And do WHAT- oh he’s already getting out of the car.]
["Angel"... God, don't do that to his heart, he's already got feelings for you, just a little crush he's nursing. (Do little crushes make you get off to the guy?)
Ain takes a breath, fisting his hands up in his cardigan, and then thinks. Was it the Audrey Hepburn thing? It had to be that. Oh God, he needs to stop saying that to people. ...and Wolfwood is gone, okay, he's getting in the back. Why? Why are they getting in the back...
He follows, of course, scrambling out of the front and into the back seat and slamming the door before anyone can notice them playing switcheroo here. It's a mess back here, and Ain manoeuvres carefully over boxes and the sort, mindful of where his feet land, until he can get comfortable.]
[They’re in the back now, and Wolfwood is realizing he hasn’t thought this through. Just because Ain has admitted to being gay doesn’t mean it has anything to do with him. It’s narcissistic and insane to think otherwise.
But, god, maybe he’s willing to take that chance to see. Maybe he’s okay with potentially ruining a friendship because he wants this so badly. Ain was brave enough to admit to liking men to begin with, it’s not…that much different, right?
Ugh. Wolfwood can’t meet his gaze for a moment, kicking boxes under the seat so there’s more room. Don’t panic. Just calm down. It’s going to be okay.
What if it’s not. What if Ain hates it? Hates him? What if he slaps him and leaves and slams the door in his face? What if-]
A-Ain.
[Smooth. Wolfwood clears his throat, turning to face Ain in the seat beside him. His heart feels like he’s going to explode. He wants this so bad. Wants HIM so bad. He…
He……
He leans in, and he presses a chaste, single kiss to Ain’s lips. It lasts for barely a second, long enough for him to breathe in the scent of nicotine.]
Says Ain's brain, eloquently, as Wolfwood presses their lips together and Ain's entire gay brain stomps the gas pedal like hold on hold on hold on, you're dreaming right now wake up bitch, none of this is real!! You're in a coma! You died!!
Ain literally pinches his side to wake himself up. That does not work, and he sputters, nervous, cheeks helplessly red. Um. Uh. He, uh—]
[Congrats, Ain! You’re awake! This is really happening! You are somehow clairvoyant and about to fucking neck with your nebulous crush in the back of his Toyota-
Wolfwood, meanwhile, is ready to take his licks. He’s sitting there prepared for basically anything at this point as he nods slowly, once.]
["Oh" because that's bad. Wolfwood was supposed to reject him and call him slurs and make him regret being alive so he could straighten Ain out, kind of in a literal sense. There's no greater wakeup call than your first crush basically calling you every name in the book and telling you to go die. That would've fixed him! Then Ain would be a sinless woerm...
..."oh", because he's tempted, so tempted, to fall into Wolfwood's arms and let all his nasty fantasies come to life. God still has not answered his prayers and said "you're okay my child, just stop getting off to that delinquent". Who has been there for him other than Wolfwood? It won't be his family. His mom will skin him. His brothers will probably kick him to death. He'll go down in the books as just another hate crime.
Ain closes his eyes briefly and bonks their foreheads together. Wolfwood tastes like nicotine, like he expected he would, and it briefly lingers on his lips. He is super going to Hell. They're both going to Hell. Maybe they're already in it.]
In that case, kiss me again. I wanna see something.
[Oh, he says. Is that…a good “Oh”? Or a bad one? He honestly can’t tell initially, looking back at Ain with his brow furrowed and feeling unusually vulnerable all of a sudden. Ain was the one who was admitting to being gay, so why is he feeling like he’s on the chopping block all of a sudden…?
He swallows again past the dryness of his mouth, wanting…to put his hands on Ain, but refraining for the time being. I wanna see something could mean anything. It could be good, it could be Ain wanting him in close so he can give him a proper wallop for kissing without asking.
…]
Alright…
[He isn’t going to ask. He’s just going to go for it now that they’re forehead-to-forehead, like…as if he would pass up this opportunity. Fuck no.
He is kissing Ain again. Just like before, albeit…there’s definitely a questioning moment of lingering, this time around.]
[Wolfwood will get like, ten seconds of kiss before Ain starts fucking giggling against his lips. It's a sweet, childish giggle. A bit naive, maybe, and definitely enthused.]
[Wolfwood…snorts, sputtering against Ain’s lips at the way he just starts giggling like this is the funniest thing he’s ever had happen to him. It breaks the tension easily, if nothing else, leaving Wolfwood sort of sitting there helplessly, his face and ears as red as ever.
Mm... more like dreaming? Haha... I think you giving me your coat that one time triggered something in me. Like a sleeper agent. But I thought you were straight this whole time, and I was scared to act on it.
[He still feels sick, in many ways. Sick and filthy and like he shouldn't have this, because it's wrong, it's shameful... but there's a weight off his chest, too, and at the same time he feels disgusting, he feels like he's finally puzzled together everything that was bothering him before. Why the world was black and white and dreary. Why Wolfwood made it feel so colourful.
For now, Ain isn't having a sobbing fit. Maybe when he gets home. For now, the world almost feels correct, finally.]
I was upset last week because I wanted you to touch me more, but I was still scared then, too, which is sort of why I left in a huff. Granted, it took me the entire week to figure that out, but... hindsight is 20/20. Isn't that how it goes?
[He was upset because Wolfwood didn’t touch him more? Hello??? He is going to jump into the sea, what the fuck. He could have been having this the whole time. Never mind that though, Ain admitting to having dreams about him is making Wolfwood feel some kind of way for sure. Ain is damn lucky he has the restraint to not drag him into his lap right fucking now, but still…
He’s back in Ain’s space again in short order, and this time? He’s reaching a hand up, not to ruffle his hair, but…to actually caress his cheek, cupping the side of his face in his palm as he brushes his thumb over Ain’s cheekbone.
Eat your heart out, Ain. You’ve opened a Pandora’s box you’ll never be able to close again.]
…let me tell you something. You stick with me, this evening? And I’ll show you more. As much as you want.
[Their foreheads still together makes for the perfect opportunity to brush their noses together in a way that is excessively fond, speaking to Wolfwood’s own feelings he hasn’t yet had a chance to properly express.]
I know…it’s a lot. And you’re probably scared. But I promise you ain’t alone. Okay? [Nuzzle nuzzle.] If…if you’ll have me? I’d like to take you to dinner.
[The implication there is implicit. It’s not just as friends, not anymore.]
Ain's entire brain is :D?? right now, but that's fine. Wolfwood's gonna show him something. He has no idea what it is, but he's along for the ride, and that's for the best. Ain likes (good) surprises! This sounds like surprises. So, he giggles at the admission, and the question, and the way their noses brush together. Get used to those giggles, Wolfwood, they're going to be the Rest of your life.]
Haha, okay~. ...wait! I'm supposed to be taking you to dinner! [oh my god] You're not allowed to pay this time!
[He even brought you your wallet back and everything (moneyless)!
So, yeah. Assuming Ain doesn’t get cold feet, or they aren’t out so late that he runs into Ain’s presumed curfew he keeps imagining him having, well…Wolfwood might be able to show him more than a thing or two.
Which. Speaking of…he’s still gently cupping his face, stroking the longer hair that’s falling along the side of it.]
Before that…
[Instead of asking, Wolfwood pulls Ain in for another kiss. Except this time, it is a kiss true and proper, lingering as he tilts his head a bit to let their lips meld more seamlessly together.
Ain’s brain will have a proper frame of reference for that necking, now.]
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Date: 2024-02-10 10:42 pm (UTC)Jesus fucking Christ he is down SO bad. He’s pretty sure that if Ain ever deigns to utter his first name, he…can’t promise the level of acting up he may or may not do.]
No sleeveless shirts, no suits, got it.
[He manages, a bit breathless as he waits for Ain to climb on the bike, back or front. Front of course will be a bit dicey since he’s been struggling with his hormones this whole time, but the silence in the cold air was enough to calm him down. Mostly. It’s fine—
They drive off. Wolfwood is consumed by thoughts of Ain. He wishes he had his own landline so he could call him, but Chapel would skin him alive. He could send him letters? But does his family check his mail? He wouldn’t want to do that to him.
Ugh. Ugh. He grips the handlebars so tight his knuckles blanch white as the bus stop looms into view. He parks on the curb, the engine still purring, and waits for Ain to get off.
The demon on his shoulder screams for him to kiss his cheek as he gets off, but he just barely beats it back down. The hug was bad enough, that is a sure fire way to get yourself punched in the face. So he watches Ain as he goes, calling after him:]
Get home safe, yeah?
[And…he drives off. He leaves because the bus is already here, and he can watch Ain board it safely in his mirrors. He has to go now, lest he feel tempted to climb aboard behind him.
Wolfwood speeds home. He drives well over the speed limit and somehow manages to not get caught, nearly throwing his bike over in the front lot of the mansion in his haste to get inside. He makes it upstairs without getting accosted by the other family, somehow, and locks himself up in his room.
He doesn’t even make it to his bed. He gets to the foot of it before collapsing on his knees there, fumbling with his belt so he can get his hand into his pants, his forehead mashed into the edge of the mattress. He breathes heavy, fisting himself so hard his belt jingles, his mind’s eye possessed with visions of Ain bouncing on his cock, or crying out underneath him on his back as he steals his first time away.
He paints the floorboards, then begs for forgiveness.]
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Date: 2024-02-10 11:20 pm (UTC)He could've been so normal, miserable for the rest of his life, doing what was pious and right of him to ensure he gets into Heaven, and yet here he is. Here he is, wondering if there might be something different out there, if maybe a lot of things in his life have been a lie, if it's okay to have these awful thoughts about a friend.
Ain gets home. He goes right upstairs immediately and goes to shower before anyone can notice him. He sits on the edge of the bathtub and lets the water pour from the showerhead around him, embarrassed and scared and praying that there isn't something horribly wrong with him. He's just sick. He's ill. That's all it is. He didn't do anything wrong, like yes his hands were wandering and yes he's had some questionable dreams lately, but it's not like they actually did anything. They're friends...
"I'm not doing anything" Ain says, and then that night when he goes to bed, he dreams of doing things. He dreams of Wolfwood pressed up against his back, against his ass, fully clothed but kissing his neck while Ain's being shoved down against — something, who knows, a firm surface for sure, a bed or a wall or a desk or the floor. He dreams about where he'd put his hands if Wolfwood ever allowed him free reign of everything the man has, from his biceps to his chest to his abs and lower, to his hips, maybe his thighs, and Ain wakes up feeling feverish and hot. It takes his brain several more minutes of catching up before he realises he's hard and aching.
He was told if he ever did anything about that, that his hands would fall off and he'd die instantly of a heart attack because God is so pissed at him. But God didn't answer his prayers earlier in the night, when he asked if he could be forgiven for being a little curious, and it's 2am and Ain thinks to himself that he's not going to be able to sleep if he doesn't get it out of his system. So he rolls onto his back, staring at the canopy of his bed overhead, and sits up to close it all the way. Even if God is awake and listening right now, good luck seeing him now!!
...Ain hasn't ever done this before, though. He lays back on his back and continues to stare at the top of the canopy. Closes his eyes, thinks to himself that maybe he'll get back to sleep, and then he doesn't. The only thing he sees, the only thing he swears he can smell, is Wolfwood's cologne and nicotine. Ain lets his brain wander back to a mishmash of his earlier dreams — them necking in the car, the way Wolfwood pressed against him, letting his hands wander — and that spurns him on enough to at least dip his hands underneath his pyjama bottoms. Except even that feels too sinful, too shameful, (his hands mysteriously do not fall off), and so he pulls his hands back after the initial touch and palms himself through his pyjama bottoms instead, imagining that it's Wolfwood's hand there instead.
He lasts a solid two minutes doing this. It's probably not even shocking. Ain has no measure of time for these things, so he rolls over, feeling sticky and gross, and puts his pillow over his head and screams into the mattress.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 12:02 am (UTC)Wolfwood has actual work he has to get back to as he toils away the hours between now and his date (because that’s ALL he can think of it as) with Ain. He has to patrol the city. He beats up thugs for causing trouble where they shouldn’t. He drives his bike around town to blow off steam, nearly running a light when he catches sight of the seafood place they’d be eating at next week. He cycles back towards home so he can finish off the day by roughing up a pair of goons who had fallen behind on their protection fees. He snatches every valuable they own as penance to bring back to Chapel, going through the objects as he sits in his truck.
Then, he happens to rifle through a wallet, eyes widening when he sees the copious amounts of bookstore coupons and gardening magazine clippings. On top of it being a very familiar green…the ID is missing and so is the money, but he has a sneaking suspicion he should hang onto it, so he does. It definitely sits heavy in his pocket as he goes to scrub the blood off his hands and arms.
After that, he has a drink at the lounge. He listens to his mates talk about their day. He leaves when a few of them start bragging about the women they’ve shagged. No thanks he doesn’t want to hear it, bye. Instead, he goes to his room and showers, placing the wallet carefully into his desk beforehand.
He swears he can smell star anise.
That evening is spent browsing a porn mag from under his bed. He’s feeling miserable and horny and it’s only been a day, and if he’s pulling out the porn you know he’s desperate. The thing is…gay porn is illegal to sell. But the magazine he’s reading isn’t technically porn by definition, but most in these circles accept it as such. And so will he.
It’s “just a fitness magazine” his ass, he thinks as he slowly jerks off to the images of the scantily clad men in the magazine. Thing is though, they’re all too…big. Too fit, too large, they’re not…
He closes his eyes, letting his imagination take over. Ain easily slots over the visages of some of the smaller guys, with his thin waist and thick thighs. He fists himself to the mental image of Ain being fucked open underneath him. He hears Ain squeal his name in his ears in his mind’s eye, and he shoots all the way up to his own chin.
This…is how he’ll spend his nights when they’re apart, when he isn’t working his Undertaker job or his mafia job.
How does Ain fare until next Tuesday…]
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Date: 2024-02-11 12:25 am (UTC)Ain is Not Okay.
There are days when he's fine. When he's like "yeah I like guys I think, so what", and then he spends the entire day doing his tasks (doctoring, gardening, whatever it is) and reading his Straight Romance Books™ and wondering yet again why he feels so empty reading these. There are days when he's not fine, when he spends hours praying and hoping God will hear him, he's Not Gay Actually because that's a sin and he can't do that, and whenever he has a thought about Wolfwood he winds up in tears. There are nights where his dreams are ostensibly normal, and nights when they're downright debauched, at least as debauched as Ain's brain can get because he doesn't know all the things that go into having any amount of gay sex. When he wakes up horny and wanting half the nights they're apart, Ain doesn't do much other than palm himself through his pants until he gets off, or sometimes humps a pillow like an animal.
Sunday, they have service. Ain feels too filthy to be seen in the house of the Lord right now, so he offers to do confessional service, especially because it seems like his youngest brother doesn't want to do it and would rather spend time cleaning out the storage this week. That's fine, they all switch roles from time to time, save for the fact that the community garden is Ain's and Ain's entirely, something no one wants to step on because he does a damn good job at keeping people fed. Screwing up the meticulous watering and fertilizing schedules of the plants is going to wreck them. Ain has this.
So. Confessional... turns out to be a bad idea. A man comes in and sits on the other side and confesses to Ain that he thinks he's in love with a man, and Ain wants to bang his head into the wall until he passes out. He asks a simple question: Do you think you may me misconstruing this love for the love of a friend or a brother? And the guy answers: I don't think I would want a friend or brother to touch me like he does, Priest.
That really cements everything in place for Ain, that little interaction. In the end, he tells the man what Ishmael would tell any other man: Do not give into temptation. Pray it away. Let the Lord's Light be your succour on those dark nights. The Lord says you will not end up in Hell if you continue to follow His teachings.
It feels colourless and empty, like everything in Ain's life when Wolfwood isn't around. Those colourful ink stains that Wolfwood left on him still can't be scrubbed from his skin no matter how hard he tries. He's furious about it. He wants to cry again, and he does, after the guy leaves to go try to cure himself of the gay. Ain isn't sure whether he breaks down because he's actually sad and worried about himself, or if it's because he's lonely and wants Wolfwood to hug him again.
By the time Tuesday rolls around, Ain is resolute in a few things. The first thing is that he probably, definitely, is not a heterosexual man. The second is that maybe there's a "fix" for him somewhere, if he just gets it out of his system. The third is that he's going to tell Wolfwood before they go that he likes guys, and he expects Wolfwood to call him every slur in the book and storm off, and that'll be that. That'll fix him. Can't give into temptation if the guy cuts their friendship off there, calls him names, and probably beats him within an inch of his life.
He dresses like they're going to dinner still even though he's sure Wolfwood's about to connect the dots of Ain's wandering hands to his degeneracy and probably shoot him in the face about it, that way Wolfwood doesn't think he's just given up entirely beforehand. And hey, maybe Ain will die and leave a pretty corpse. One has to wonder why Ain wants somebody to hurt him so badly over this, but that's a traumatic talk for another day.
So. He shows up. He meets Wolfwood where they agreed to meet, at the park where they always meet up, and he waves and smiles in a way that's completely empty. If he's not going to die tonight, he's at least going to lose a friend, so... y'know. Doing well.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 12:41 am (UTC)Unaware of Ain’s struggles, Wolfwood gets dressed Tuesday evening and drives his Toyota to the park this time to avoid any repeat incidents on his bike. Plus, he knows a motorbike will draw unwanted attention in the more wealthy midtown, so he’d rather not risk if if he could help it. He’s leaning against the truck door when he sees Ain arrive, waving to him as he makes his way over.
He wordlessly hands him the wallet before anything else, smirking.]
No need to thank me. I found the goons who took your wallet.
[This
Is your wallet right-]
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Date: 2024-02-11 12:48 am (UTC)Huh? You found it?! It's been a month, though!
[Nothing serves to distract like having his wallet back, that's for sure. Ain takes it and flips through it. It's definitely his; this is his shade of green, that's a familiar silver cross logo on the front, and those sure are his (almost expired) (he's got like two days left on these bad boys) coupons in here. Yep, tracks.]
How did you know it was mine? ...lucky guess?
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Date: 2024-02-11 01:00 am (UTC)[Wolfwood smirks, leaning forward at the waist. Ain may have noticed that he’s wearing the blazer they met in originally, with the same crosses on the sleeves and everything. It seems to be one of his fancier outfits compared to the leather.
Even if…it means his chest is exposed…oh boy. At least that cross is laying between his pecs? That has to count for something.]
S’long as I’m with you it won’t get swiped again, don’t worry. Anyway, ready to head out? I’m starving, dunno about you.
[He seems…in an unusually good mood, being with Ain again.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 01:07 am (UTC)He takes a breath.]
Wait. I... I want to tell you something. You probably won't like it, but I'll forgive you if you don't. Um, but I... I think...
[He fidgets, pulling at his sleeves in that familiar way he does. His eyes snap to the ground, and his voice lowers so that only Wolfwood can hear.]
I think I might... like... men. Other men. I mean— I'm keen on them.
[Well, he's keen on Wolfwood, but he can't just say that. If this admission doesn't get him murdered on sight, that one would. Or so Ain thinks, anyway.]
I know you don't want to hear that from someone you're friends with, so I wanted to tell you before you wasted any more time with me. I'm sorry. I only just figured it out, or I would've said something sooner.
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Date: 2024-02-11 01:16 am (UTC)It probably looks bad. Really bad.
Even worse when Wolfwood suddenly takes his arm with a weird sense of urgency, even though Ain was whispering and only they two could have possibly heard.]
…get in the car. We can talk about it more in there.
[To Ain, this probably sounds like he’s about to get murdered in his crush’s car. But in reality, this is NOT a conversation they should be having in the open, nor is it one Wolfwood wants to have beyond the tinted windows of his truck (tinted because he’s mafia).
In reality, his heart feels like it might explode. He’s..dizzy with relief. Giddy. Ecstatic. Nervous.
Dear god please help him.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 01:24 am (UTC)He looks uncomfortable at the suggestion, but he gets in the truck anyway, staying Very Close to the door just in case Wolfwood thinks to pull out a gun and splatter his brains all over the glass. It's shut, of course, but Ain's got his hand near the handle like he might attempt an escape if things go south.]
Please don't murder me. Or if you do, let me go back home and say bye to my family first?
[Ain, honey, what the fuck—]
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Date: 2024-02-11 01:43 am (UTC)…what? Murder you?
[Wolfwood exhales on a laugh. It’s fond, and gentle. He? Wants to hold him? He wants to drag him into his lap and tell him it’s okay to be gay, but he doesn’t want to scare him either. Never mind the fact Wolfwood has his own hang uses about it to the point where he’s not sure he’d even believe his own advice…
Okay. Let’s start small.]
Ain. It’s okay.
[He sits back in his seat, sighing. It’s nice and private in the car, at least.]
I’m not gonna lie, I’ve thought you were this whole time. I just figured you were super closeted.
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Date: 2024-02-11 01:54 am (UTC)Wait. You knew? The whole time? And you didn't tell me? [Ain, you can't just call people fairies, that starts fights.] I— was it obvious?
[Ain you FELT HIM UP???]
I am super closeted! [AIN] I'm telling you because— [because he's been having sinful, terrible thoughts] —because you're my friend, and who wants to be friends with someone like that?! I haven't told anybody else. I just barely figured it out! I was raised really— really religiously, you know! We don't just do that Northside!
[The anxiety is approaching. The anxiety is going to kill him. The anxiety wants him to die—]
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Date: 2024-02-11 02:08 am (UTC)Wait, wait- Angel, breathe.
[Wolfwood reaches out and puts a tentative hand on Ain’s shoulder, not wanting him to hyperventilate with how fast he’s trying to explain himself. Meanwhile, he’s over here feeling a little guilty over how relieved he is, like holy shit. He’s gay. He’s actually realized he’s gay. Which means…
Maybe…he has a shot. Just maybe…
He swallows thickly, realizes he just dropped a pet name on him, and quickly retrieves his hand, face flushing.]
It ain’t like I knew for sure or nothin’. But you kinda…some things…I dunno. Had me wondering.
[It was, unfortunately for Ain, more than just being felt up. Way more. And now?
He isn’t sure how much more he can take. It’s like having a whole cake put in front of him and being told he can’t eat any.
Wolfwood looks over his shoulder, into his back seat. It’s a little messy. One of his spare jackets is thrown over the seat, there are some boxes and crap on the floor. He tries to keep his cigarette butts in the holder, but they do inevitably fall out. Back there though…the windows are tinted near black, as dark as he can legally get away with. It’s not so dark in the front seat.
…]
Hey. Let’s uh…let’s get in the back for a minute.
[And do WHAT- oh he’s already getting out of the car.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 02:16 am (UTC)Ain takes a breath, fisting his hands up in his cardigan, and then thinks. Was it the Audrey Hepburn thing? It had to be that. Oh God, he needs to stop saying that to people. ...and Wolfwood is gone, okay, he's getting in the back. Why? Why are they getting in the back...
He follows, of course, scrambling out of the front and into the back seat and slamming the door before anyone can notice them playing switcheroo here. It's a mess back here, and Ain manoeuvres carefully over boxes and the sort, mindful of where his feet land, until he can get comfortable.]
...okay. We're in the back.
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Date: 2024-02-11 02:30 am (UTC)But, god, maybe he’s willing to take that chance to see. Maybe he’s okay with potentially ruining a friendship because he wants this so badly. Ain was brave enough to admit to liking men to begin with, it’s not…that much different, right?
Ugh. Wolfwood can’t meet his gaze for a moment, kicking boxes under the seat so there’s more room. Don’t panic. Just calm down. It’s going to be okay.
What if it’s not. What if Ain hates it? Hates him? What if he slaps him and leaves and slams the door in his face? What if-]
A-Ain.
[Smooth. Wolfwood clears his throat, turning to face Ain in the seat beside him. His heart feels like he’s going to explode. He wants this so bad. Wants HIM so bad. He…
He……
He leans in, and he presses a chaste, single kiss to Ain’s lips. It lasts for barely a second, long enough for him to breathe in the scent of nicotine.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 02:35 am (UTC)Says Ain's brain, eloquently, as Wolfwood presses their lips together and Ain's entire gay brain stomps the gas pedal like hold on hold on hold on, you're dreaming right now wake up bitch, none of this is real!! You're in a coma! You died!!
Ain literally pinches his side to wake himself up. That does not work, and he sputters, nervous, cheeks helplessly red. Um. Uh. He, uh—]
Y-you— you also like boys?
[.......honey.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 03:41 am (UTC)Wolfwood, meanwhile, is ready to take his licks. He’s sitting there prepared for basically anything at this point as he nods slowly, once.]
…yeah. Have for a while.
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Date: 2024-02-11 03:55 am (UTC)["Oh" because that's bad. Wolfwood was supposed to reject him and call him slurs and make him regret being alive so he could straighten Ain out, kind of in a literal sense. There's no greater wakeup call than your first crush basically calling you every name in the book and telling you to go die. That would've fixed him! Then Ain would be a sinless woerm...
..."oh", because he's tempted, so tempted, to fall into Wolfwood's arms and let all his nasty fantasies come to life. God still has not answered his prayers and said "you're okay my child, just stop getting off to that delinquent". Who has been there for him other than Wolfwood? It won't be his family. His mom will skin him. His brothers will probably kick him to death. He'll go down in the books as just another hate crime.
Ain closes his eyes briefly and bonks their foreheads together. Wolfwood tastes like nicotine, like he expected he would, and it briefly lingers on his lips. He is super going to Hell. They're both going to Hell. Maybe they're already in it.]
In that case, kiss me again. I wanna see something.
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Date: 2024-02-11 04:14 am (UTC)He swallows again past the dryness of his mouth, wanting…to put his hands on Ain, but refraining for the time being. I wanna see something could mean anything. It could be good, it could be Ain wanting him in close so he can give him a proper wallop for kissing without asking.
…]
Alright…
[He isn’t going to ask. He’s just going to go for it now that they’re forehead-to-forehead, like…as if he would pass up this opportunity. Fuck no.
He is kissing Ain again. Just like before, albeit…there’s definitely a questioning moment of lingering, this time around.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 04:23 am (UTC)You taste like I thought you would.
[AINCHASE ISHMAEL—]
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Date: 2024-02-11 04:33 am (UTC)[Wolfwood…snorts, sputtering against Ain’s lips at the way he just starts giggling like this is the funniest thing he’s ever had happen to him. It breaks the tension easily, if nothing else, leaving Wolfwood sort of sitting there helplessly, his face and ears as red as ever.
Mostly because…]
You been thinkin’ about kissin’ me…?
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Date: 2024-02-11 04:48 am (UTC)[He still feels sick, in many ways. Sick and filthy and like he shouldn't have this, because it's wrong, it's shameful... but there's a weight off his chest, too, and at the same time he feels disgusting, he feels like he's finally puzzled together everything that was bothering him before. Why the world was black and white and dreary. Why Wolfwood made it feel so colourful.
For now, Ain isn't having a sobbing fit. Maybe when he gets home. For now, the world almost feels correct, finally.]
I was upset last week because I wanted you to touch me more, but I was still scared then, too, which is sort of why I left in a huff. Granted, it took me the entire week to figure that out, but... hindsight is 20/20. Isn't that how it goes?
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Date: 2024-02-11 05:14 am (UTC)He’s back in Ain’s space again in short order, and this time? He’s reaching a hand up, not to ruffle his hair, but…to actually caress his cheek, cupping the side of his face in his palm as he brushes his thumb over Ain’s cheekbone.
Eat your heart out, Ain. You’ve opened a Pandora’s box you’ll never be able to close again.]
…let me tell you something. You stick with me, this evening? And I’ll show you more. As much as you want.
[Their foreheads still together makes for the perfect opportunity to brush their noses together in a way that is excessively fond, speaking to Wolfwood’s own feelings he hasn’t yet had a chance to properly express.]
I know…it’s a lot. And you’re probably scared. But I promise you ain’t alone. Okay? [Nuzzle nuzzle.] If…if you’ll have me? I’d like to take you to dinner.
[The implication there is implicit. It’s not just as friends, not anymore.]
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Date: 2024-02-11 05:26 am (UTC)Ain's entire brain is :D?? right now, but that's fine. Wolfwood's gonna show him something. He has no idea what it is, but he's along for the ride, and that's for the best. Ain likes (good) surprises! This sounds like surprises. So, he giggles at the admission, and the question, and the way their noses brush together. Get used to those giggles, Wolfwood, they're going to be the Rest of your life.]
Haha, okay~. ...wait! I'm supposed to be taking you to dinner! [oh my god] You're not allowed to pay this time!
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Date: 2024-02-11 05:38 am (UTC)[He even brought you your wallet back and everything (moneyless)!
So, yeah. Assuming Ain doesn’t get cold feet, or they aren’t out so late that he runs into Ain’s presumed curfew he keeps imagining him having, well…Wolfwood might be able to show him more than a thing or two.
Which. Speaking of…he’s still gently cupping his face, stroking the longer hair that’s falling along the side of it.]
Before that…
[Instead of asking, Wolfwood pulls Ain in for another kiss. Except this time, it is a kiss true and proper, lingering as he tilts his head a bit to let their lips meld more seamlessly together.
Ain’s brain will have a proper frame of reference for that necking, now.]
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